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Believe in yourself!

My birthday is drawing near!

So, I was born on September 19 2002, and yes! I am turning 14 years old next Monday. There's nothing much I look forward to on my birthdays. It's just that, God has been guiding, giving me life and strength for these past years of my life. I'm still young but it just makes me happy. Looking back at those times when I was still a little kid, innocent and always happy. The things that was only on my mind back then was playing and studying. But as I grew up, I saw the world, the real world. Different from my point of view as a child. The real world was full of possibilities, I can dream whatever I want to be. But the thing is, I cannot be the person I want to be, we are living in a judgemental world. We can be whoever we want to be, its just that people, including me, are afraid to be judged and to be picked on. Living your dreams is just having confidence, courage, faith and hope. You should not be scared of being judged, because no matter what you do, you will always be judged, because that's how the world is.

I'm typing this right now because I also want these to implement on myself. I also want to change. Nothing changes if nothing changes (Walang magbabago kung wala kang babaguhin). I don't want to be afraid of living my dreams, I want to do it before it's too late. I don't know how should I start it, but I will somehow create a path myself and ask guidance from God. I've always wanted to be a Youtuber and a dancer, but the thing is, I'm scared. That's why, while I am typing this, I am also teaching myself. I don't know how, when and where should I start. The only thing I know for now is why, why am I going to do this? Because its my dream, and that "why" will help me to create my path. The important thing is to believe. Believe in yourself and someday, you'll be proud.


"Believe"

Sadness

Although, I know that there's no one reading this, I'm still creating new blogs. At first I thought, wow, blogging is fun, I should try it. My goal was to be a famous blogger that inspires people. But after time passes by, I realized that, I created a blog to let my feelings and loneliness out. These past few days, I'm like really bored and lonely. Others tease me because I'm single, but what does being single do with my loneliness? I mean, I'm still young and more focused on my studies, I don't need a love life. So anyways, I just don't know what to do, I don't even know why I'm lonely.

"Loneliness is dangerous. It's addicting. Once you see how peaceful it is, you don't want to deal with people." -Hedonist Poet

Actually, my sister sent me that quote, and I was like, 'Yeah, I prefer being lonely than being happy.'
Why? Because it's peaceful. Although you feel incomplete and your heart's heavy, being lonely is just peaceful. I want to know the reason why I am lonely. Sadness is just starting to eat me and drown me, up to the point that I cry without a reason, or even search the internet on 'ways to be happy.'

Am I weird or something?

I don't know why I started a blog.

Well, actually no one is reading this. But I still don't know when can I update about the concert of BTS. That's all, bye!

BTS Concert in Manila! D-2

#BTSinManila

BTS is coming to town!! Yes, and from what you've read, I'm from the Philippines, the country where my heart lies. 

After a long time, they're finally going back to hold their concert inside the Mall of Asia Arena, and my dreams are finally coming true. 

Now, let's just go back in time, and lemme tell you how my dreams are going to come true.

Actually, I was already prepared when rumors where spreading like fire, it said that BTS is going to have a concert on January 16 at the Philippine Arena, and I was prepared to cry. It's because Philippine Arena was really far, plus, the rumored ticket prices were really affordable, ranging from 1,000 to 10,000 Php. When they had their TRB concert here, I was not yet their fan, which was a little disappointing.

I said to myself that I was definitely going to attend their concert, so I pleaded my parents and they said yes! I said to them that I was fine with General Ad which was only 1,000 Php, but they said that what's the point of attending their concert if you can't even see them. So, both of them agreed on Lower Box A, which was 8,500 Php plus SM Ticketing charges. I cried literally, and I thanked them. My prayers were answered. 

But then when it was June 19, ticket selling day, we were a bit late because we came at 11 am, when the mall opens at 10 am. We were panicking that time, others went home crying because one by one, the tickets were selling out. I prayed and looked for signs, I hoped that our target ticket was still available. Until it was announced that all the tickets were sold out. My world crashed, how will I see my husbands? How will I see Jin's broad shoulders, Suga's gummy smile, Hobie's cuteness, Namjoon's handsomeness, Taehyung's breathtaking face, Jimin's puffy cheeks and Jungkook my love? How? How?

I went home really disappointed and I was really stopping my tears from falling, because anytime I could cry. It hurt me that much, as I was an avid fan. We went to church, because it was Sunday, it was my family's tradition. I asked God, why? Is it really a bad thing, that's why you won't let me go? I thought my prayers were answered, but what is this? God, please give me a sign, I'll accept whatever your plan for me is.

I still hoped and prayed for many days. And then that one faithful time, it was 5 minutes to July 3. Lol, it was actually 11:55 pm, July 2, my phone just beeped and I was sleepy that time. So I actually checked my notification exactly 12 am. I saw Happee Hour's tweet, saying they will be having 2nd wave, another selling of tickets. I rejoiced and was really happy! But the only ticket to be sold is Lower Box SRO. So I prayed to God, "God, if you'll really let me to go, please wake me up at exactly 8 am, if not I"ll be waking up at 10 am." It was really impossible to wake up early because I slept at 2 am.

The next morning I woke up at 8:05 am, I was really happy because it was a good sign. I did some household chores and then gained my courage to tell my mother. She said that I should have told her earlier. I was so really happy, we prepared and went to SM Bacoor. There were no A.R.M.Y's at all, we went to check at SM Cinema and they said they were offline, so we went to Customer's Service and then they said the tickets were still available. My heart was beating fast because mom was still getting money from the ATM, and I was afraid that the tickets will be sold out again. Until there she was, rushing towards us and we immediately bought the tickets. There were no really A.R.M.Y's, so we were first in line. My mom offered to buy VIP tickets but, it was a really good chance, but I declined, I was guilty, because let's all be honest, it's just a waste of money, for them.

We bought the tickets and I held it, wow, this was the feeling of holding such a ticket. All throughout the day, I was really cheerful and happy, I was really thankful. Before I slept that day, I thanked God, tears of joy were racing down my cheeks. I was really happy and thankful.

And by the way, spazzers said BTS will be arriving tomorrow, July 29, 2016.

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About the blogger

Hello to everyone! I'm Egilyn, a blogger-wannabe lol. Actually, I'm an introvert and I don't like talking with other people. I like to write a lot so I decided to create a blog. I even searched for a free blog maker until I saw these, and went for it. I'm still a student, so money is something I don't really have. 

When I was a kid, I was an otaku or let's just say I really loved anime back then. I collected posters and stuffs until I saw EXO's Sehun. It was like love at first sight (lol), I instantly became an EXO-L, even before the official fanclub name was announced. Those were my happy days, until Kris and Luhan left the group, and then Tao. As an EXO-L (before) it really hurt my fan feels.

And then I came across, BTS or Bangtan Sonyeondan. I saw Jungkook and then it was another love at first sight, haha! I watched their variety shows and they were really funny. My first bias was Jungkook, then it changed to Jimin, then to V, then to Jungkook again. But then there's Suga, how can I be loyal? Don't worry I still support EXO but I can't call myself as an EXO-L anymore.

I like sketching and drawing, but please don't expect too much. I like to dance and create videos. I like photography but I'm not good at it. 

I'm going to do blogs about my life, people's problems, lessons in life, or anything that crosses my mind. Just treat this as Egilyn's journal. Thank you for reading this and I hope I won't fail your expectations. Fighting!