Believe in yourself!

My birthday is drawing near!

So, I was born on September 19 2002, and yes! I am turning 14 years old next Monday. There's nothing much I look forward to on my birthdays. It's just that, God has been guiding, giving me life and strength for these past years of my life. I'm still young but it just makes me happy. Looking back at those times when I was still a little kid, innocent and always happy. The things that was only on my mind back then was playing and studying. But as I grew up, I saw the world, the real world. Different from my point of view as a child. The real world was full of possibilities, I can dream whatever I want to be. But the thing is, I cannot be the person I want to be, we are living in a judgemental world. We can be whoever we want to be, its just that people, including me, are afraid to be judged and to be picked on. Living your dreams is just having confidence, courage, faith and hope. You should not be scared of being judged, because no matter what you do, you will always be judged, because that's how the world is.

I'm typing this right now because I also want these to implement on myself. I also want to change. Nothing changes if nothing changes (Walang magbabago kung wala kang babaguhin). I don't want to be afraid of living my dreams, I want to do it before it's too late. I don't know how should I start it, but I will somehow create a path myself and ask guidance from God. I've always wanted to be a Youtuber and a dancer, but the thing is, I'm scared. That's why, while I am typing this, I am also teaching myself. I don't know how, when and where should I start. The only thing I know for now is why, why am I going to do this? Because its my dream, and that "why" will help me to create my path. The important thing is to believe. Believe in yourself and someday, you'll be proud.


"Believe"

Sadness

Although, I know that there's no one reading this, I'm still creating new blogs. At first I thought, wow, blogging is fun, I should try it. My goal was to be a famous blogger that inspires people. But after time passes by, I realized that, I created a blog to let my feelings and loneliness out. These past few days, I'm like really bored and lonely. Others tease me because I'm single, but what does being single do with my loneliness? I mean, I'm still young and more focused on my studies, I don't need a love life. So anyways, I just don't know what to do, I don't even know why I'm lonely.

"Loneliness is dangerous. It's addicting. Once you see how peaceful it is, you don't want to deal with people." -Hedonist Poet

Actually, my sister sent me that quote, and I was like, 'Yeah, I prefer being lonely than being happy.'
Why? Because it's peaceful. Although you feel incomplete and your heart's heavy, being lonely is just peaceful. I want to know the reason why I am lonely. Sadness is just starting to eat me and drown me, up to the point that I cry without a reason, or even search the internet on 'ways to be happy.'

Am I weird or something?